I am a mother. Let me explain. You have never met my daughter. No one has; no one, other than me, as she left this world before she had even entered it, leaving a trail…
Alone For Life, With A Partner
We met while I was working at a famous Jewish organization. I was there to help people with their spiritual practice. You were there to help shelter animals. You had a beard, and a hat…
Miscarriage And The Mikvah: Respecting My Unborn Child
Trigger warning for miscarriage: disturbing description, although not detailed I remember first learning about the family purity laws. They appeared, to me, mysterious laws. Why should a wife and husband separate during and somewhat after…
I Watch Porn And I Want To Go On Shlichus.
I’m a frum chabad girl. And I watch porn. And I also show my body online to many men. From chabad men to not Jewish men. I hurt myself on camera for these men. I…
Waiting For The Impossible
Dear Mom, It seems that I have done this so many times before, been down this same path. But this time is different. This time, you won’t be pointing any fingers at me, denying my…
When Can We Embrace One Another?
The race has begun from Rosh Hashanah Until November Until the last tatty comes home From shul Where we can be together at last Without the intense davening and Promises that are made to be…
Is There Meaning To Pain?
Sometimes the people who are the most loved ones in our lives are hurting the most, creating the worst pain deep in our heart. But that is life… hate it or face it you can’t…
My Dear Sons… A Letter Of A Baal Teshuva
My Beautiful boys, For my whole life I knew I was Jewish, and that is why I gave you your beautiful Jewish names. Even though I was raised as a Christian by our misplaced family,…
Why I Sleep Naked Before Rosh Hashanah
It’s hot But it’s really not I wear many layers during the day A shirt that covers my elbows A shirt that covers my knees Barely have time to breathe While I access these spiritual…