Never Felt So Alone

I have a husband, 3 children, over 300 Facebook friends and of course I have many non Facebook friends, yet I feel alone. How can that be?

I talk with my friends and family daily, I go to work and make friends, I’m social and I like to talk. Why then do I feel like this?

Part of me knows why. My older brother died over 20 years ago- he was my only sibling and didn’t have a chance yet to marry, he was 25. My parents are both deceased, (pretty recently for both) and I really miss them and being able to call them to talk about my life. My dad really liked to hear about my day.

I try talking to some of my friends but fortunately for them, they don’t understand because thankfully they have their siblings and parents. When I do talk to them about how I feel, the subject very often turns to their problems that I’m now listening to.

Now I’m not trying to be a bad friend. If I called you because I’m feeling down/lonely please let me finish up my discussion and validate my feelings. The part of feeling lonely that I don’t get is that I have friends, and some very dear ones, how can I lay awake at night feeling so lonely. I wouldn’t wish this feeling on anyone.

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  1. Anon-eye-mouse. August 1, 2017 at 8:06 am

    It sounds to my unprofessional opinion like you’re lonely for someone who deeply understands you. And isn’t that what we all want from our relationships? To let down the barriers and have someone understand and accept all of you, not just what they can relate to? I wish you all hatzlacha in finding a true friend, not just someone to exchange words with. <3

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  2. Anonymous August 1, 2017 at 1:19 pm

    You’re not alone. I totally get this feeling. I often feel this lonely too. The reason you can still be lonely, even with a life full of people, is because the relationships themselves may not be very fulfilling. Having friends to do things with is not the same as having someone you can tell your fears and hopes and feelings to. Part of it could also be an existential loneliness, or even depression. Going to therapy has helped me immensely in this area.

    May you feel loved and connected and divinely cherished… because you are.

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