Marriage is hard. I thought I was an easy person. Easy to live with, easy to love. I make friends easily, my employers love me, my family gravitates towards me. I never imagined marriage would be difficult.
But he’s a difficult person. He picks fights with me. He’s closed off and non communicative during fights or arguments. I’m not used to it. I didn’t expect it.
On the one hand, I’m really happy and in love. We sit and talk on the couch about our childhood, we’re intimate and loving, giggly and gracious. On the other hand, when we argue, it snowballs from one small matter to World War III in a matter of moments. Afterwards, he’s able to communicate properly and lovingly with me, but while we’re in the moment, he’s in his own world. He’ll bring things up that aren’t even even the topic at hand. I’m not used to it.
I worry that we’ll get divorced.
I cannot imagine my life without him. He is my everything and we spend 75% of our marriage laughing, chatting, and all round being content and comfortable with one another. It’s the other 25% that worries me. I worry that that 25% will grow to more than that. I see that things have only been getting better with time, but that doesn’t mean I don’t worry.
I guess no one ever told me that marriage would be this difficult. I expected joy and loving feelings 24/7. This is a shock to me.
We haven’t even been married for a year yet. Is it normal to think about these things? Is it normal to worry about things like this?