To my Jewish sister or brother.
I don’t know you, and I would like to beg forgiveness. All Yidden are one and I think you are owed an apology for being pressured to change. Whether or not you believe is between you and Hashem but you will always be one of us. Pardon the movie pun.
I do not pity you because there was chutzpa in your post and in my experience those with chutzpah end up ok. Maybe I am wrong. After all I do not know you. You are a sister or brother with every one of us.
May we all heal in truth