Holy Judaism?

I am Jew.
Born to the tribe.

No one ever helped me reclaim my bris into the covenant
Nor did they give me answers about G-d
that inspired
A willingness to do more and
Learn from my Godly given scroll

L’chaim they tell me
But what kind of life am I raising my life to, what does all of this mean?

So Hineni
Here I am
To be
Readily accepting
Those things about my religious upbringing I cannot change
Nor grasp rationally
I am here to listen and learn
About heavenly things and worldly problems that face me, my family and the world

SO…
How can Judaism save me from my independent thinking and secular wisdom?
Holy

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