Hashem

Hashem,
Can we get coffee
We need to talk
Forgiving You
Is a strange endeavor
It’s saying to You
The hurt You gave me
Is okay
It’s saying to Him
I trust that I had to feel all of it
To be whole again
Saying to You
I’m sorry
Isn’t going to happen just yet
Because I think we are just about even
Dear G-d
I accept You as my father
Because my father is just a person
But I haven’t yet as my king
I’m not ready to serve You
To trust your Torah and rabbis
this Yom Kippur
I forgive myself
I’m working G-d
And I feel close to you
But right now
You need to say sorry too
For the trust
Can we rebuild?
I’ll make the coffee if you bring the milk

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1 Comment

  1. Anon October 16, 2019 at 6:22 am

    I hear in your words the pain you’ve gone through and I pray you will find healing.

    I had a similar struggle with G-d leading up to yom kippur this year. It’s comforting to know I wasn’t alone in my experience

    I shared my struggle with G-d and soon after I had a thought – Yom kippur isnt only about being forgiven. I can also learn from G-d how to forgive. This thought helped me with my struggle.

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