A young mother full of promise passed away, Another luminary male with children to raise. Good people, capable, full of light and life. Why, oh why am I the one still alive? I don’t like…
Browsing Category Depression
Depression
Depression is a b**** I dont get the luxury of being able to feel depressed I have to work i have to hustle Im all alone In this fight for survival Doing the simple things…
The Paradox Of Suffering
Every cell of my soul and heart is coated in bruises. Despite desperate begging prayers made even in childhood, my life feels like it has been one long beating. And now at middle age, I…
I Am Alive Because I Love My Parents
I am alive because I love my parents. I don’t want to break their heart by ceasing to live. But I can’t stand my reality. My body, my life, my lack of purpose.. The emptiness,…
Every Day Is Tisha B’av
Tisha Baav, The saddest day, Tears and emotions are now okay. In groups or alone, Tapping into the meaning, Trying to understand galus is what they are acheiving. For me, it’s not that way, Today…
Depression: The Flaw In Love
I am a child. Don’t let this beard fool you. Beneath the hairs on this chest is a heart weak from fear. I am a child lost at a train station, surrounded by big, confident…
What Joy Is There?
I’ve always been a happy person. I’ve always been brimming with joie de vivre, singing and dancing in the streets kind of happy. And now months pass by with no joy. No satisfaction. Nothing that…
Triggers, Abuse, The Daily Effect
Have you ever been traumatized to the point where you can’t formulate a sentence in your brain Where your mind can’t find two words to ever make sense, where it can’t gather the scattered absent…