I never belonged; I was always the other. My parents were Baalei Teshuva and both highly educated professionals who were looking for something deeper in their lives. They longed to become a part of their…
Browsing Category Depression
What Joy Is There?
I’ve always been a happy person. I’ve always been brimming with joie de vivre, singing and dancing in the streets kind of happy. And now months pass by with no joy. No satisfaction. Nothing that…
Triggers, Abuse, The Daily Effect
Have you ever been traumatized to the point where you can’t formulate a sentence in your brain Where your mind can’t find two words to ever make sense, where it can’t gather the scattered absent…
Will I Ever Forgive And Forget?
Ever since I remember I loved to write. I’ve been through an extreme difficult childhood. I was abused several times and trusted no one. My only outlet was my pen. Until I went to camp…
Seminary /Mental Health
Yikes! I’m writing a lot today, but here goes. I want to broach an important topic that’s buried deep in my heart. First let me explain what seminary is. Typically, after high school one goes…
To My Dearest Son – With An Epilogue
To my dearest son Duvy, I know that you are really young, only 11 years old. There is something that I wish I can share with you, but I fear telling you about it. I…
The Frostbitten Heart
Every time of the year When it gets cold out When the suns rays stop Warming the planet earth There is frostbite in my heart The light in my eyes dim The bulb in my…
Set Me Free
There is this huge gaping hole Inside my heart No one can fill it Nothing can fill it It just keeps growing larger As I try filling the void Stuffing it With food I try…
Depression
This weekend depression and I became reacquainted. Depression is an old pal I haven’t seen since February of this year, and when I finally managed to give her the boot and told her she couldn’t…
To My Dearest Son
I know that you are really young, only 11 years old. There is something that I wish I can share with you, but I fear telling you about my secret. I can’t burden you with…