I will begin by saying that I experience mental instabilities, and take an anti-depressant, mood-stabilizers, and an anti-psychotic. I work with a therapist weekly, meet my psychiatrist monthly, attend two recovery programs, and read all…
Browsing Category Depression
What Do You Do
What do you do when the pain is too much? What do you do when you’re so pure and good and beautiful and you want to murder your parents? What do you do when all…
Depression
Bed is soft but it’s not that it’s soft I’m not sure what it is cuddled hiding. Why is it the ultimate in safety? Because we close our eyes and entrust our meat suits night…
Unwanted Visitor
My constant companion it’s not and for that I’m grateful I am. but when it does come to visit you’d never know that. Its deep and mighty arms pull me into its grasp choking and strangling…
My Rabbi, The Psychiatrist
The rabbi was wrong. I walked into the study where he sat And nervously I sat down And waited for him to say something to me “I can’t explain him; he’s magical” My mother said…
My Indifferent Ex-Friend
In a way, to be indifferent to suffering is what makes the human being inhuman. Indifference, after all, is more dangerous than anger and hatred… Indifference is not a beginning, it is an end. And,…
Alone Forever
No matter where I place myself in life, I constantly struggle to connect and make friends with the people I am around. I’m almost 40, and I have no true friends. To make matters worse,…
Insufficient
I feel like there’s no amount of conviction or spiritual fulfillment I can attain that will make up for my many years of secular living. Or my mixed lineage. Or my utter ignorance towards practice….