I am alive because I love my parents. I don’t want to break their heart by ceasing to live. But I can’t stand my reality. My body, my life, my lack of purpose.. The emptiness,…
Browsing Category Depression
Every Day Is Tisha B’av
Tisha Baav, The saddest day, Tears and emotions are now okay. In groups or alone, Tapping into the meaning, Trying to understand galus is what they are acheiving. For me, it’s not that way, Today…
Depression: The Flaw In Love
I am a child. Don’t let this beard fool you. Beneath the hairs on this chest is a heart weak from fear. I am a child lost at a train station, surrounded by big, confident…
What Joy Is There?
I’ve always been a happy person. I’ve always been brimming with joie de vivre, singing and dancing in the streets kind of happy. And now months pass by with no joy. No satisfaction. Nothing that…
Triggers, Abuse, The Daily Effect
Have you ever been traumatized to the point where you can’t formulate a sentence in your brain Where your mind can’t find two words to ever make sense, where it can’t gather the scattered absent…
Will I Ever Forgive And Forget?
Ever since I remember I loved to write. I’ve been through an extreme difficult childhood. I was abused several times and trusted no one. My only outlet was my pen. Until I went to camp…
Seminary /Mental Health
Yikes! I’m writing a lot today, but here goes. I want to broach an important topic that’s buried deep in my heart. First let me explain what seminary is. Typically, after high school one goes…
To My Dearest Son – With An Epilogue
To my dearest son Duvy, I know that you are really young, only 11 years old. There is something that I wish I can share with you, but I fear telling you about it. I…
The Frostbitten Heart
Every time of the year When it gets cold out When the suns rays stop Warming the planet earth There is frostbite in my heart The light in my eyes dim The bulb in my…