Browsing Category Depression

Insufficient

in Depression on October 10, 2017

I feel like there’s no amount of conviction or spiritual fulfillment I can attain that will make up for my many years of secular living. Or my mixed lineage. Or my utter ignorance towards practice….

Why, G-d?

in Depression on September 4, 2017

Dear G-d, Why? Why does my life have to be almost constant suffering. I believe in You and that You are there and run the world but I have a hard time believing that everything…

Modeh Ani

in Depression God Uncategorized on June 5, 2017

eyes fluttered open stretched arms I lay there still and quiet I choke on that prayer my hands cannot connect I do not offer thanks to him the living and eternal king I wish he…

Broken People

in Depression surviving Uncategorized on May 10, 2017

I never thought I would make it to this point in my life. When I was sixteen, I thought that I would have killed myself before my next birthday. Every birthday since then I’ve thought…

Stuck

in Depression surviving Uncategorized on February 1, 2017

Stuck in a moment In an ideal In a wish I never thought I would be this old I never knew I would be this complex Headphone wires that refuse to come apart and so…

My Rebellion

in Depression surviving on January 25, 2017

Rebellion: refusal to accept some authority, code or convention. My illness is my rebellion; it is my body giving up and my soul screaming out “I cannot be stifled anymore”. I am a coward a…