Can’t See It

Can’t see it,
Can’t touch it,
Can’t point to it.

Did it ever happen,
It’s all in my head,
Get over yourself.

Intimidating,
Manipulative,
Controlling,
Criticizing,
Humiliating,
Dismissive,
Yelling.

Kinda like Covid 19,
Turning the world on its head,
Can’t touch, see or point to,
Yet-the entire world is shut down.

Getting through the days,
Meandering thought the sludge,
Taking care of the “essentials”
Surviving.

Emotional abuse is real.
It hurts a part of me that exists,
The feeling is cant be described in words,
Here’s a shot.

Small,
No dignity or self,
Anxiety,
Depression,
Just want to disappear,
It would be better if I was not here.

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1 Comment

  1. So true! May 6, 2020 at 1:58 pm

    I’m sending you my thoughts and prayers! I can’t imagine.

    But at some level, I could. Thankfully I am no longer in that environment, so I need to resort to my memory to recall what might be similar to your experience.

    It would not be better without you here. As for the abuser, S/he will not get the message that s/he is abusive. No lessons learned there. As for you, you deserve to be here for much longer!

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