I never took that dive into being one of the faithless. My faith was just… never there. When all the other kids in my school proudly put on tefillin, I was merely annoyed by yet…
Down In The Struggle
There seems to be a wisdom, a twinkle in the eye, a moment when a person knows they are selling out and selling themselves short. It’s an inner awareness that cannot be denied, it protects…
What It’s Like To Be Your Friend – A Letter To My Friend With BPD
When we first met, I saw something in you and I thought to myself, “this is a person I’d like to get to know.” You were sweet, warm and caring. But then, as I started…
So Alone. What’s The Point.
I feel so alone. My life just a repeat tape recorder of work, stress, occasional self love, then some self loathing. I feel like there is no point. This endless loop hurts I’m not ugly,…
Blue Eyes I Will Forget
I’m scared So scared of what this means Of what being alone is To me To you To my heart And the lonely in it I said goodbye to you Yet again And your blue…
Unwanted Burden
Up until a year or two ago, I did not want children at all. The entire concept of children from beginning to end frightened and overwhelmed me. I did not want to be pregnant, I…
The Weirdest Seder Ever
The Weirdest Seder Ever 4/20/19 Ok, I knew it was risky agreeing to make a Seder at my 21 year old daughter’s house in Yerushalayim this year. She promised 2 things: one, that she would…
Again And Again Again (Towards You?)
It started late night eyes open content digestion bare skin 13 guilt discovery guilt repentance guilt Then it was parents internet history shameshameshameshameshame momentary freedom until cycles continue late night tired eyes dating apps real…
Oh Where Did The Davening Go?
The title of this entry is a play on the words of a Fall Out Boy song, “oh where did the party go”. It’s a song that would definitely not jive with the facade of…